Day 2

So I'm on the second day of loading, I did a very good job! I had my favorite Starbucks drink for breakfast, my favorite pizza for lunch, my favorite burger for dinner and then frozen yogurt for dessert! I didn't weigh myself today and I don't plan on weighing myself tomorrow. I don't want to know if or how much I gained these last two days. So, tomorrow it begins! I'm a little nervous because I know it's going to be hard, but I'm also so excited to meet the happy girl that I was several years ago! What a lot of people don't know is how much emotional weight is gained along with physical weight. I feel bad about myself in so many ways that I have allowed these bad feelings to control what I do with my family and what I do with myself. I let moments go by that I may never get back just because I don't want people to see me like this, pretty pathetic huh! So, although this is going to be hard and I'm going to hate all the times I have to miss out on food, I'm going to complete this! I will be releasing the beautiful, confident, sexy, powerful woman that I have covered up with fat for the last four years! She is in here and she is coming out, starting with my hard boiled egg for breakfast tomorrow morning!